MU Trade on Dec 26, 2018 10:06 from MarcoG: Tradervue User Stock Trades.

I didn't feel like trading today. I have to start admitting to my self when it's not the moment. The reasons leading me to feel like it's not the best market to trade can be different but the result at the end it's always the same, a loss, a persisting anxious feeling, stressed by performing and make good trades, feeling blocked and unable even to place orders that I assume are in my daily gesture now since 2 months. This job it's something undescribable, I had waited up to today like a kid waiting for his xmas toy and had a super will to perform and apply my strategy.
I did it and handle a choppy kind of scenario ending up green break even after my first 2 trades. But the attitude was completely WRONG once AGAIN. I didn't adapt to market while I forced the market in my direction resulting in a losing day that hurts. Yes it hurts, doesn't hurt 4$ loss cause irrelevant, it hurts the failure once again, the fact that I didn't accept ONCE FUCKING AGAIN that today was not going to be "THE DAY" and all this the day after XMAS!!!! It doesn't exists "THE DAY". Are you gonna become a trader in a day and specially after xmas day? I really can't believe myself. I need to give it time otherwise this is gonna kill me. I am like the first man in contact with the fire. I keep putting my hand on top cause it's perhaps something new to me. I am fully committed to it only since September and I am realizing that it's almost impossible to learn before having experienced what the market can present to you. Next year during these days I will take holidays cause I think it's really not the top quality scenario to trade.
Going back to the trade in the specific, I have stopped it prior my hard Stop cause I understood that the SPY was not going to drop today. Too many signals showing strength and buyers ready to spot low prices. Even all these considerations, I have traded the day.
Fuck off!!!